Breathing a little unevenly, my sinners?
Because tonight… the storm didn’t strike—it opened. ✨
Rajveer didn’t explode.
He unraveled.
Quietly. Terribly. Honestly.
Meenal’s anklets followed him into the dark,
and suddenly anger wasn’t the danger anymore…
his fear was.
So tell me—
😈 What hurts more… the forgiveness you can’t give,
or the past you can’t escape?
Step lightly.
This silence bleeds.
*****
✨ Chapter 87: What Hurts More than Anger
Rajveer’s footsteps were sharp and clipped, carrying the kind of controlled fury that didn’t spill out—it tightened, buried, and choked.
Meenal watched him walk away, the rigid set of his shoulders betraying everything he refused to show.
She exchanged a worried glance with Aditya.
He nodded, taking Arun in his arms, his eyes mirroring the concern etched on Meenal's face.
Then—
without a word—
She went after her husband.
Her own steps were quieter, softer, but urgent. She had seen that look before—on the day she fell from the stairs.
The look of a man who carried too many ghosts in his chest and not enough breath to keep them quiet.
Her loose sari trailed on the white marble floor as she hurried to catch up with Rajveer, her heart heavy with the weight of his unspoken pain.
Rajveer reached the far end of the corridor, stopping near the old carved pillar. His hand pressed against it—not for support, but to steady something raging inside him.
His breathing was heavy, his red eyes shining with tears he refused to let fall.
Munni's words were running through his mind: "Can't she be forgiven if she apologizes and shows that she has learned from her mistakes?"
But his pride and anger were still too raw, too overwhelming for him to consider forgiveness at that moment. He can't even forgive himself, so how can he forgive her?
Mistakes can never be forgiven; they are a part of him now, a reminder of his own shortcomings and failures.
Cham.
Cham.
Cham.
Anklets jingled, breaking the silence, as the scent of jasmine filled the air, bringing a sense of calmness and nostalgia.
Meenal.
“Thakur Shahab…?”
He didn’t turn.
Didn’t breathe.
Didn’t move.
Only the muscles in his jaw worked, clenching so tightly she feared something inside him would snap.
Meenal stood beside him—not touching, not intruding, just being there.
“Ji…” she said again, gently this time.
He closed his eyes.
A long, silent exhale shook out of him.
“She is just a child,” Meenal murmured, glancing back toward where Munni had stood. “Her words were innocent.”
“Wounds are not,” Rajveer replied hoarsely. "That doll in her hand... " He paused as his voice cracked. "It was me." He wanted to say it but couldn't find the words.
Meenal stepped closer.
“What did her words remind you of?” she asked softly.
He finally turned his head, just slightly, just enough for her to see the storm still trapped behind his eyes.
“Mistakes,” he whispered. “Ones that can’t be undone. Ones that leave marks no one sees.”
A beat.
A breath.
“Mistakes?” Meenal repeated quietly. “Whose?”
Rajveer’s throat tightened visibly.
He looked away.
“Everyone’s,” he said. “Including mine.”
Meenal’s chest ached at the quiet confession.
She reached out and lightly touched his arm.
Not grabbing.
Not forcing.
Just enough to anchor him.
“Thakur Shahab… Munni only asked if her mother can be forgiven. That question hurt you. Why?”
Rajveer inhaled sharply.
His voice dropped to a broken whisper.
“Because forgiveness is never simple for people like us.”
Meenal blinked. “People like us?”
“Yes.” His eyes flickered with something raw. “People who have watched forgiveness destroy lives.”
A memory flickered across his face—one she didn’t fully understand yet but felt deeply.
Meenal remained silent, as she too still couldn't fully forgive Rajveer's coldness at her sister's deathbed.
Rajveer stiffened. "A maid like Munni's mother doesn't deserve forgiveness. She will ruin everything like her…."
His hand closed around the edge of the pillar.
Hard.
So hard the veins in his forearm stood out.
"Like who…," Meenal asked, her voice barely a whisper.
Rajveer's eyes bore into hers, full of pain and anger.
“Meenal,” he warned quietly. “Not now.”
She nodded slowly.
But she didn’t walk away.
Instead, she stepped closer and placed her hand over his clenched fist.
He didn’t pull away.
“Rita is scared,” Meenal whispered. “Munni is scared. And you are hurting.”
Rajveer’s eyes softened with exhaustion.
“Everyone is hurting,” he said bitterly. “And I am expected to fix it. To forgive. To protect. To be the wall.”
“You are the wall,” Meenal replied, squeezing his hand. “But walls don’t carry storms alone.”
Rajveer breathed in sharply.
His gaze fell to her belly.
A quick, unguarded flicker of fear flashed across his face.
Meenal noticed.
She always noticed.
“Thakur Shahab…” she whispered, “you’re not angry. You’re… frightened.”
He shut his eyes.
For a moment—
Just one moment—
He allowed himself to lean into her touch.
His voice dropped so low it was barely a breath.
“I don’t know if I know how to forgive.”
Meenal’s heart tightened.
“You do,” she whispered.
Rajveer’s eyes opened.
And in them—a storm still raging, but softer now.
He swallowed.
“Rita hurt us,” he said quietly. “What she did—”
“What she did also saved us,” Meenal interrupted gently.
He froze.
Their eyes locked.
As she took his hand and put it on her belly, she whispered, "Our baby is proof that forgiveness is possible." Rajveer's gaze softened as he felt the gentle kick beneath his hand, or imagined he did.
Pain met truth.
Truth met fear.
Fear met love.
The air between them shifted.
Meenal’s hand rose slowly to his cheek.
Rajveer didn’t move.
Didn’t breathe.
He just closed, leaning into her touch, feeling the weight of his past begin to lift.
“I am here,” she whispered. “And we will face the rest together. Whatever it is.”
Rajveer looked at her like a man who had been drowning for years and finally saw land.
He inhaled shakily.
Then nodded.
Once.
Soft.
Slow.
Surrendering.
But behind that surrender still lived a truth he hadn’t yet spoken—
He was not afraid of Rita’s mistake.
He was afraid of the past repeating itself… and destroying what he had finally begun to love.
😈 Devil’s Note 💋
Ohh, my trembling sinners…
Did you feel that shift?
Rajveer didn’t walk away in anger tonight—
he walked away in fear.
The fear that forgiveness might cost him more than rage ever did.
And then…
Cham. Cham.
Meenal’s anklets followed him like a promise he didn’t know how to accept.
She didn’t argue.
She didn’t demand.
She simply stood beside him—
the only calm his storm listens to.
And when he whispered,
“I don’t know if I know how to forgive…”
tell me—
didn’t something inside you break just a little?
Because that wasn’t a confession.
That was a wound speaking.
But the moment she placed his hand on her belly?
Oh, my sinners…
the mighty Thakur flinched like a man afraid to love something that could be taken from him.
That wasn’t softness.
That was surrender.
And yet—
Behind his nod, behind the trembling breath, behind the storm that’s finally loosening…
A darker truth still waits.
Rajveer isn’t afraid of Rita’s mistake.
He’s afraid of his past repeating
—and destroying the only thing he’s finally letting himself love.
Hold tight.
The real storm hasn’t spoken yet. 😈💋
—Shaar Shree💋

